its all about me=)

2005-12-12T03:11:00.000-08:00

ppl, I HAVE OFFICIALLY SHIFTED!! CLICK ON THE URL.SEE U ALL IN MY NEW BLOG!=) http://www.crashedhopes.diary-x.com pls change yr links too.thanks.n dun forget to comment.thanks.:D

2005-12-11T05:20:00.000-08:00

im so pissed today.let me tell what happen at the salon today.cos i was at the salon getting prepared for my hair to be done.then after waiting for lyk a century,i finally got attended.n i was tinking that i was probably the last customer to be attended to,which is true.ok bck to the main tink.while the woman was applying some conditioner tink on my hair,this fucking woman cam eup and interupt her.n my hair got applyed halfway and half is lyk dry adnt he other half is lyk sticky.n her fucking daughter also want kind.she is lyk only primary sch and she wan to have her cut lyk as though she is sum big star??? wtf man.n that fucking daughter,oso dun wan to tell her mother wat she fucking want to do to her hair.and let the mohter ask so many question and took up my time.lyk HELLO??ITS MY TURN NOW.N IM HAVING CONTIONER BEING APPLYED ON MY HAIR!!!wtf man.n i gave that glare and she kinda of got my msg and quickly told the woman to settle her fucking pampered daughter.argh!!damn bloody pissed la.n bcso fo those two,my conditioner got dryed up adn have to be re-applyed.wtf.lols.ok newae,i changed my hairstyle every tink.LOLS.so happy.hahas.well actually,i jus here to rant my anger and tats' all.chow.

2005-12-10T05:00:00.000-08:00

im seriously cracking my brains of wat to blog.cos my life have simply no exciting event going on.im a boring person with a boring lifestyle.my holidays are going down the drain.well,not exactly.i kinda of going for a mini make over during the holidays.lol.so dun be surprised if u see me again.lol.lols.im kinda of struggling of how to do templates.cos im very excited to use diary-x.now i can bitch abt ppl and have protected entries.n the password will be given to only ppl im close to and i trust them.so feel honoured if i give u my pass.lols.anyway,this is pathetic.there is only 2 ppl online for my contact list now.lols.this shows pathetic i feel now.argh.i tink i shall end my entry now.sorrie if these few days my entries are short cos i seriously cant' think fo anytink to blog.

2005-12-09T04:17:00.000-08:00

ok,im tink im gg to close my this blogspot one.lols.cos i jus created a diary-x one.hee.anyway,AUDREY LIAW SHU JUAN,IM NOT A TOILET CLEANER OK?lols.if i am,then we are both fellow toilet cleaners.lols.fair>i tink so too.lols.ok im very bored.bt i jsu did my hmwk finished and now im cracking my brains on how to do the templates.lols.ciao.

2005-12-08T04:21:00.000-08:00

ok.i cant really decide on wat colour shud i use to update my blog so i tink i will jus stick wiht my all time favourite.PINK.lols.ok newae,went out with audrey,weelyn,eunice,ernestine,natalie,cindy and khai theng.we wen out today to celebrate khai theng birthday.n we bought her a HUGE tazmanian devil stuff toy.LOL.amusing.hahas.wanted to went in to sum place called part world and man,that place was damn freaky.its so bloody dark and there was a strong smell of ciggrettes.n we were shokced when told to rent a room cost over 100 plus.lol.so we gave up the thot of singing.then after that,went to walk for a while and went home.the going home [art was most shoik wan.Just when we were abt to cross the road,the starbucks people approached us and told us that free drinks were being given out.n its any choice of it.then we were all so happy that we went to starbucks immmediately.LOLS.how cheapskate of us sia.bt after all,we are typical singaporean,before that, we were actually suppose to follow audrey to kino bt we were too lazy to walk.lols.then after hearing free starbucks drinks were given out,all of us rush to starbucks.so LOLS.n audrey was lyk saying can go starbucks bt cannot go kino.LOLS.then after that,went home with eunice,cindy and wee wee.lols.n AHHHH! I SERIOUSLY FELL IN LOVE WITH JEREMY SUPTER! HE SSO DAMN BLOOD HOT AND CUTE.LOLS.cos i was watching peter pan yest and when i saw him first time,i was lyk wow.he is defintely HOT.lols.and i fell in love with him.AHH! lols.ok ,i cant tink of anytink to write now.lols.except,I LOVE JEREMY SUPTER.lols. ok,ciao.

*play with fire
and face the consequnces

2005-12-05T05:33:00.000-08:00

ok,im suppose to be watching rainbow connection now.bt heck.cos i hate the episode now.lol.anyway,went to sch today and later cabbed to wee wee s' place.n at there,i played my maple.lol.gen was having a hard time training me.hahas.n i jus realised that my mum is weird.real weird.n i mean it.she jus told me that king kong was nice and touching.n i was lyk,wat so nice and touching abt a black gorilla that goes round a city terrorising everyone?lol.newae,i think band has robbed alot of my time.I realised that most of my time spent are wiht my band mates.i have suddenly become so close to them.argh!i tink i will have prob communicating wiht my classmates next year.its lyk as though a block of wall had severed all connections between me and them.N i dun wan it to be that way.well,i guess i will jus have to spent more time wiht my classmates now since there is lyk no more band practices anymore.lols.sigh.I LOVE FA RU XUE THIS SONG.ITS DAMN BLOODY NICE.lol.ok,that was a bit anti-climax bck there.hahas.oh well, i cant' think of anytink to write or to continue so chow.till next time ppl!=)

*accept yourself
before expecting ppl to accept you

2005-12-03T06:47:00.000-08:00

My post shall be lovely pink today.LOLS.newae,went for JDH wedding today.tot ell the honest truth,it was erm,sad to say,DAMN boring.i practically fell alseep thru the whole ceremony and was msging happily until i got warning letter.LOLS.nmost of the time,ppl frm our band were paying their fullest attension to shell instead fo the bride.lols.oh and the bloody bride was so attitude.we were happily taking photo then she showed her bloody fucking temper.lyk,wat s' her problem sia?wedding day cannot be grumpy wan lo.stupid.so after taking photos wiht a VERY VERY grumpy bride,we headed bck for sch and me,audrey,nat,fiona,gen,ernestine,cindy,eunice and wee wee went to PS to have lunch.After that,nat,fiona,eunice,audrey,me and wee wee went to watch CHICKEN LITTLE.it was damn cute bt there was no plot to it so we kinda of wasted our 9.50.lol.then we went to YAMAHA n AUDREY AND I WENT DUTCH TO BUY A POLISHING SLIVER CLOTH.LOLS.we were comtemplating if we shud shared it wiht the seniors or jus shared it between the two of us.lols.bt we know that fussy seniors lyk ERNESTINE YAM SHIYUN and DELANIE WONG AI MAY,who takes care of their instrument super well would wan to use it.LOLS.jus kidding.so being the NICE us,we decided to share our NEW polishing cloth with them.LOL.SEE HOW NICE WE ARE?lols.after that,went hm with eunice,nat and fiona.n hey presto!here i am tell u ppl my days' work!lol.sigh,im beginning to lose intrest in maple already.lols.well,i ahve to admit this.I AM A SPASTIC PERSON who plays maple.lols.ciao.=)

*a thousand years of parting
is equals to a thousand years of missing

2005-12-02T04:46:00.000-08:00

my maple is still not working.boo hoo.i tink i need poh wai yee s' help.lols.newae,tmr is that pathetic fat ass wedding.i wonder sumtimes how can sumone lyk him find a companion?the other party must ahve been blinded or have stamps pasted over her eyes.sigh.im lossing intrest in bloggin these few days.so ppl.BE PREPARED.FOR I MAY SHUT MY SITE DOWN ANYTIME.bt hack,its lyk as though ppl frequents my site.so why am i making these huge annoucement?newae,i have to wake up REAL early tmr.shucks man.fall in at 8.so early.on a sat morning too.lols.well,im off to get my maple done.with the help of geneviene tay ping pong.(p.s i dunno how to spell her name)lols.

*boredom kills you
physically and mentally

2005-12-01T04:02:00.000-08:00

THIS IS SO EFFLING ANNOTING.MY GOT DAMN MAPLE IS NOT WORKING!!STUPID LE.i keep downloading and trying to access to it bt IT JUS WONT WORK.ARGH!!newae, POH WAI YEE and TAY PING PONG jus left my hse.hahas.they came to my hse just now for fun.n POH WAI YEE made her self so comfortable at my hse.lols.bt she is nice cos she help me install maple.LOLS.now,im struggling with it.so EFFLING FUCKING ANNOYING.argh.n i ahven bath yet!that explain why im feeling so heated.lols.argh.sat is that FAT ass wedding.irritating sia.wake up so early jus to go play a spastic song called yellow mountains.so WAT THE HELL LO!bt for the sake of CIP points,jus have to go.newae, i need to go bathe now and do my fucking maple later.argh!!ciao.

*floating away
do u even cared?

2005-11-30T05:11:00.000-08:00

whee.im bck.hahas.sorrie for not updating cos i ahve been very lazy and tired.so let me fill u in now.lols.went to have lunch wif ern and the rest.then me,audrey,ern went to sit the merry-go-round.it was damn fun.n we were laughging all the way.after that, me and joey were lyk playong wit the furby and asking it to GO AND DIE.LOLS. n to think that the furby understands cos it showed a sad face and joey kept apologising to it.so LOLS.ok,that was for monday.after that,the rest of the days are all about BAND! Seriosusly, u noe,i cant' THAT bar for nuts' sake.it REALLY makes me sounds like some fucking ambulance.i practise until i got so pissed with that bar and the whole song.lols.band ended early today for some reasons.after that,went home with wee wee,gen and dee.i dun tink i will be going for band tmr.oh well,i shall see abt that.anyway,im going to have my blood test next next week! abit scared.lols.bt heck,it is a monthly think for me to do.imagine every month having a needle piercing thru yr skin.*shrugs*.oh well,i tink i shall end here for NOW.LOLS.ciao=)

*a magical place
with a magical charm

2005-11-27T07:28:00.000-08:00

I jus realised how i much i loved my this skin.i keep changing new ones bt sumhow,i will always change it bck to its original.dun ask me why.may be moulding season haven come for me yet.lols.anyway,went to J8 today.to see the siglap and st.andrew perform.the siglap uniform was damn funny.some was either too short for them or too long.lols.so funny.then went to eat at MOS.i missed the ice milk tea.lols.after that,went home wiht nat.had a nice long chat.lols.i dunno why do i keep getting this feeling like the whole world hates me and im a failure.it sukcs.it lyk an invisible pair of hands throttling around yr neck,strangling and forcing the air out of your body.i tink i need to talk to this someone.whom i tink she hates me.oh well,now my main focus is to learn those effling annoying scales and master them and also virginia bar 73.i hate that bar.makes me sounds like sum kind of ambulance.lols.this holiday,its going to be damn busy for me.cos i have started preparing for alot of next year stuff already.n plus my port folio.i need to get it done.i feel like im one step closer to getting invested.yea.lols.haiz.looks lyk i need to be stronger next year and stop crying already.=(

*those thoughs i cant deny
are hidden beneath

2005-11-25T07:10:00.000-08:00

my day was totally,utterly,absolutely,positively horrible.i got said in the early mornings,my phone came crashing donw frm my bed,i woke up late,i didnt played so well,i cried and to top it all,i still haven done my maths tuition hmwk.i jus cant understand scales!i do not take music and i dun even noe wat are the flats and sharps all that.I dun noe wat made join the band when i have no background knowledged abt music.i mus have been an idiot back then.im desperately seeking for help.i feel hopeless,jus lyk a failure.n now to sadden my mood even more,im doing sec 3 e.maths.how ironic!lols.ahh.im seriosuly going mad.my whole week is so gonna be packed.got sectionasl and still need to shop for assessments bks.nnow,im multi-tasking.lols.im so proud of myself.hee=)bt for now,i tink i better catch some shut eye to end my horrible day.so ciao=)

*its jus the emotions
taking over me

2005-11-24T06:44:00.000-08:00

today was not bad as i thot it wud be.luckily,i didnt die today.so rejoice.instead,im quite fascinated by that glozs.i tink he practically marvellous,except for the fact that he is too stright-forward.bt as they say,the truht hurts.so we mus be able to take it honetly n humbly.newae,im here to RANT abt 2 ppl today.

1ST ON THE LIST: OH-SO-FAMOUS JDH!
hes such an ass.n hes damn rude too.can he lyk stop using the wat the**** SIGN? i noe the sec 1s does not noe abt it bt still,that gives him no right to use it.its lyk vulgarites n damn rude la.scolding ppl the F word as and when he like.wat kind of band instructor is this? im seriosuly getting pissed.i jus cant' stand it.i tink its so damn bloody rude of him.n besides,he is a copycat!he practically follows watever that glozs guy do.n he jus follows lyk a dog!bt he had his deserts today! LOLS. im SO glad that i asked the ques,"WHO S' THAT?"it gave that glozs guy a chance to embaressed JDH infront of the whole band!HA! IM SO PLEASED WITH MY SELF FOR BEING TIRED.n,he does not have to stare at me with that kind of evil eye jus bcos i keep yawning and my teeth were chattering so loudly.its not my fault that my brain does not have enuff energy n that im so freezing cold that the shivers ahd travelled to my mouth.im so pissed today.bt was feeling exhilarated when glozs insulted you infront of the whole band so many times.HA! laughing bck at you once again.thats ' all for now i guess.bt i seriously think he shud get fired.

2ND ON THE LIST: THE GLOZS GUY
hes damn brillantly smart.i was marvelled by the way he played the clarinet and the way he explains the theory for how to blow good air in to our instrument.n today projection project was damn amazing.i didnt noe that i cud play so loud.i was amazed by it.but,i was breatheless after the exercise.was gasping for air halfway thru the playing.i wonder wat will happen if im asthmastic.i tink i will jus die on the spot.LOLS.ok,shall not be so mean.bt,he is really a great conductor and a fantastic musician.thas' all for now.

that s' all for badn except,JDH vented his anger on the juniors.stupid pathetic loser ass.after that,went home with gen,weelyn,cindy.n we did sum special mission.bt we keep banging in to each other.cos we were too kan cheong and afraid of being seen.DAMN LOLS.tmr have to face that loser again.for the last time.of this month.i cant' wait to play for his funeral.ciao=)

*tired of being tired
i jus need a break

2005-11-23T06:45:00.000-08:00

today was so tiring.had warm ups the whole damn day!for band.n tmr that glozs or watever u spell his name is coming tmr.ok peeps.this may be my last entry.for i wont live to see the day light after tmr.im scared and nervous.there is alot of what ifs questions gg on in my head now.im scared for tmr.serious.in fact,im so scared that im gg to sch early for self practice.i have NEVER EVER EVER been so ahrdworking towards band,not even towards my school work.the only times im lyk that is for televison programmes.so u can actually imagine how great the fear in me is.newae, went to watched harry potter with weelyn,cindy,eunice,lisbeth.well,lisbeth didnt watch wiht us.so yea,only four of us.n guess wat?we got front row.i was totally shocked.i will NEVER fail to get the front row whenever i watched harry potter.dun ask me why.cos i dunno too.yea.n so there was this graveyard scene which weelyn and i were quite terrified and we were lyk covering our eyes with our jackets.lols.n my good looking cedric diggory died in the show! im lyk huh?why mus he die?hes lyk so good looking.i love him so much.he lyk so suave.lols.n he had to die in the movie.its so dots.bt overall,the show was awesome.except for the part cedric died.that was the saddest and most depressing part.lols.after the show,went round the mall cos we were hitching a ride home frm cindy s' dad.hee.i bought 2 new hair ties.yay for me!lols.ok,im so dead tmr.can sumone write out my will for me tmr incase i die tmr.ahh.I LOVE CEDRIC DIGGORY!my suave idol.=)

*in the words of my broken heart
cry me a river

2005-11-21T09:02:00.000-08:00

today day was such a cold icy day.i jus had my macdonalds' supper.stupid delivery came so late.n its 1 sumtink now.lols.i have never blogged so late.newae,went to get uniform with weelyn today.the damn buliding was damn ulu.n i actually thot that the lift was stucked cos when it reaches watever floor,it will sum how stop n jerked.got a shock of my life.can u actually imagine the trauma i felt?lols.ok,that was abit dramatic.cant'help it.im taking lit next year.so i need to be more dramatic in my description abt things.this is called putting yrself in the character s' shoes.n getting the feel of it.LOLS.ok,im being so rubbish now.after that,went to eat at subway with weelyn.n we saw her ex-senior.i was trying to see how she looked lyk but her boyfriend or watever will sumhow blocked my view.can u imagine how irritated i was?went home after that n hugged my stuff lamb.(im still huggin my stuff lamb now)i jus realised that it was so cute.lols.ok never mind abt me.im jus being dots here.sigh,school is like going to start soon.n i actually wasted my holidays.doing notink bt going for band practices and getting scolded for notink.wat the hell man.it felt as if my youth was going to waste.oh no.im getting older.imagine how old i will feel when next year comes.newae, i have band and meeting tmr.so im turning in now.chow=) i feel bloated and cold.

*swaying on the branches
reminicing the past

2005-11-19T06:27:00.000-08:00

i have moulded again!hahas.its a rather sweet layout.for me.hahas.cos there is like bits of pink every where.lols.newae,gee.dun be so sad la.life is short.mus enjoy while u can.if not u die early,more regrets.lols.ok.serious now.ahh.i seriously need to shop for assessment bks.i need them for next year battle.newae,im too lazy to blog now.chow!=)

*playing is my forte=)

2005-11-16T06:12:00.000-08:00

OK PPL.I CONFESS THAT IM THE WORLD S' GREATEST IDIOT! I DUN EVEN NOE MY SCALES.(AS IN MUSIC)ITS LYK THE BASIC??n that glossy guy is coming next week.i tink i better brush up lest to get insulted.i tink that glossy guy shud change his occupation.he shud not be a band conductor.he shud switch to cosmetics industry.he shud sell lipgloss.it wud be more profitable.n his slogan?" GLOSS S' LIPGLOSS IS THE BEST! OCS ITS GLOSSY AND ITS BOTH MADE OF GLOSS!" newae, he sounds intimidating.LOLS.oh wells.today i went to collect my bks n guess wat?im so dead.all my bks are so thick n heavy.n i dunno how am i going to cope with my pure lit next year!the macbeth is so thick!n i dun even understand wat does the joy luck club means.im so dead.my life is over.hahas.ok im actually happy abt dying.hahas.wait.i jus rmb christmas is not here yet.so in that case, I CANT DIE YET!hahas.ok lame.my sis is scaring me now abt dissecting animals for my bio practical next year.sheesh!

*floating on the sea
with a cup of wine

2005-11-15T06:32:00.000-08:00

started off the day real bad.first,i was late ofr fall-in.second,sum asshole frm my section showed me attitude.so SHE think SHE damn big la?slammed the bloody trumpet infornt og my face,saying''this is not my trumpet,i dun care,i want my trumpet back.''lyk as if i want to use her trumpet jus to get rid of my gold one.n thanks to HER,audrey had to use the gold one.u shud be the one using the gold one,if u think u are a senior.n besides,audrey is lyk yr SL?wheres yr repects?still call yr self a sec 3.shameful ma?shant' waste my breath on such pathetic asshole.it does not worth my time.after band,went to had lunch with marcia,weelyn,cindy,gen,ernestine and khai theng.damn funny.we were actually bitching abt a fat bitch.n i laughed till my sides ached.lols.after that went bck to sch for sectionals.heres the intresting part.we went to spy on the fat bitch!LOLS!damn funny.n our darling cindy captured some lovers' pic.n wat i saw was most shocking! the fat bitch outraged his modesty! she was lyk touching him all over.me and eunice were lyk omg!wat is she doing?LOLS!after that, went home with weelyn n cindy.n hey presto!im here sitting to post an entry.hahas.=)*whoosh*

*the meaning of life
is for you to find out

2005-11-14T06:26:00.000-08:00

GUESS WAT?I ACTUALLY DID SOME WORK!YES.I DID MY HOLIDAY HMWK! N IM SO CLOSE TO FINISHING IT ALREADY! YAY FOR ME!!! hahas.im must be cukoo,finishing my hmwk so early when school is like starting a month after?hahas.bt nvm.cos im oh-so-prepared for next year stuff.need to shop for my assessment bks for next year.i cant believe im so hardworking!wow!LOLS.shucks,i have band tmr at an ungodly time.9 in e morning.i cant' stand such practices,especially when there is so many of them in a month.the break given to us are lyk not-so-break? I predict that i am going to be late tmr. newae, my life stinks! I have been eating,sleeping,playing the computer and watching the televison for the past 2 or 3 weeks of my holiday life! now if u ask me,i could jus rmb the shedule.LOLS.shall end here for now.i got to be more creative when it comes to ending my entry.

*writings on the wall
tells a special legend

2005-11-11T08:27:00.000-08:00

NEW LAYOUT!hahas.simply love this one.its plain,simply and all about MUSIC!yea.hahas.ok.the first of holiday has jus passed without my knowing.im slow.hahas.i still haven touched any of my holi hmwk.hahas.well,im bck to this korean song!i jus love this song.its the song for full house.ITS A GOT DAMN NICE SHOW!.GO WATCH!IM SERIOUS!hahas.cant' for tue to come.cos im going spying on sum special ass.hahas.i still have to collect my bks for next year and buy new uniforms,when i dun even noe where the uniforms are being sold!ironic!hahas,ok i know im so dots!bt anyway,im so gonna take sum bks fmr ppl.its lyk so ex if i dun?well,shall end here for now bt before i go,i need to say this.i am sorry.bt u shud apologise too.

*the missing piece in my life
is you

2005-11-09T05:20:00.000-08:00

PPL!IM BCK! DO U MISS ME?HAHAS!ok shall stop being thick-skinned and fill u in the details about my class chalet.

MONDAY!

arrive at tampines inter.i was so darn freak out when i first stepped in the chalet.i was lyk,"ok,so this is our chalet?"it looked so creepy and freaky!n it was infested with bugs!especially mosquitoes!now im head to toe bitten by mosquitoes!went o unpacked then later waited for the dinner to arrived.the fried rice clarissa brought was damn nice.hahas.i rmb having 2nd serving of it.after dinner,went up to bath and went to room 1 to join eunice and the others.Eunice.niks,flora,joycelyn,lisbeth bunked in room 1.Din,me,nicole oli,tasha green bunked into rm 2.Audrey,clarissa,jennifer bunked into rm 3.the toilets was ok except for the disturbing fact that there will always sum how or sum wat have a bug in every corner of it.oh and the bottom deck keeps having either big moths,flying roaches or beetles.most of us were disturbed by the flying roaches.lols!after everyone bathed,we went in room 3 to talk abt sum ppl we loathe and sum ppl whom we jus love to make fun of them.the talk was actually supposed to be held in rm 1 bt their air conditioner died on them halfway.lols.talk until lyk 2 plus then went to slp.n eunice and flora went to snatched my place of slping on the bed.wth!i was damn angry la.made me slp on the sleeping bag!walao!then i woke up four plus to blow my nose and saw jenni staring at me bck with her huge eyes! i got a shock of my life!so lols!

TUESDAY:

woke at 7 plus.my goodness!hahas.had backache all over.prepared breakfast with niks.later in the morning,flora and i went to the beach there.it was so cool! we stood at the shore n let the water washed up on our feet.then we walked bare footed on the board walk.so fun!hahas!after that,went back to sch cos chalet had no activities gg on.we were panicking on how to enter sch without skirt cos we were dressed in shorts with flip-flops!so i called cindy to ask 3 seniors or juniors to stripped their skirts to give us!hahas.i feel mean doing that actually!lols!saw adurey and decided to stay in sch until band ends with her.see im so nice.hahas.at band we jus clean instrument.the bloody brush got stucked halfway and i was lyk"hallaluya!pls dun get stuck"then me and cindy were lyk competeing of the sounds of the brush!hahas.after that,went bck to the chalet with audrey.then we barbequed.it so damn funny!ashley was lyk screaming to the dying fire," i ahve high hope sin this ok?" then she fanned it vigoursly.so damn funny la.then we were lyk jia you,jia you.we need not fanned to have e damn fire gg if gayu.k had come earlier with the damn butter.after bbq,we were all so tired and our fingertips were black lyk anytink.after that,countdown to flora s' bdae.then celebrated and clean up,then bath.eunice and the rest were too tired to bathe so they went to knock out first.i stayed up audrey to help her with her trumpet as she need to discuss sum scripts with maxine,she was also partly scared of staying up alone while the rest sleep.hahas!once again,im so nice.LOLS!after that i went to slp.this time i slept on the matteress.hahas.my butt kinda of slipped in the hole halfway when im sleeping.lols!

WEDNESDAY:

woke up at 7.45 by flora s' morning call.brushed teeth and headed down to the bottom deck.the DMC gals were already there waiting to start their chalet.had ice-cream for breakfast!anti-climax.lols.after that,grabbed abit of the leftovers and went home.ont he bus,we were talking abt all that happens during the chalet.sign! its really saddening to see 2/5 last gathering went by so fast.from now on, we are not called 2/5 anymore.wadever it is, i wished everyone the best in wadever they do!=)*smucks*

those were the 3 days spent with 2/5.they went by so fast.really reluctant to see the days fly.n i still have sum unfinished business to settle with sumone called vanessa.

*pleasant memories are kept close
to our hearts as we think of them

2005-11-05T06:21:00.000-08:00

whoosh!ppl! im bck to update!hahas.went out to get fbts today with weelyn.THANKS WEELYN FOR ACCOMPANYING ME!=)i have decided to jus do things that make me remember for life n not regret for life.it still starts with r bt with a different meaning.=) ok this is it.i feel insecure.thas' what im feeling now.n i jus cant seem to decide if this person is a friend or foe.why is it that when things are going well,she is always around to destroy every bit of it and make me feel lyk im the extraded one?why is it that she always have to come into my life silently lyk a thief sneaking in a house?why is it that she is always around snacthing evverytink from me? why does she have to possess whatever i have/u noe who u are.i dun wish to say anytink.whenever anytink that involve u, i always end up being the villian when i had not done anytink!why cant u jus be gone for good?i noe u hate me too.bt i cud not careless.sumtimes,i wonder why did i treat u as a good fren.i mus be blinded by sumtink or watever. I JUS WAN U TO GET OUT AND DISSAPPEAR FROM MY LIFE! bt its impossible cos we are gonna be in e same class next year.

*insecurity is feeling
that i detest the most

2005-11-02T06:43:00.000-08:00

I AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH A CARTOON CHARACTER.HAHAS.HE IS NONE OTHER THAN DANNY PHANTOM.=)ok im so dots.i noe.newae,had band today.and that idiot jus had to pick on me.wats his problem la? newae,i did dumtink crazy yest.I DRANK FAKE BIRD S' NEST AT 2.30 IN THE MORNING.COOL HUH?HAHAS..=)OH MAN!i jus learn that my class chalet is near old changi hosipital and its going to be damn freaky and ulu.ahh! im not so excited to go after all.hahas.im collecting my class tee this fri.Looking foward to see if the design is nice and cute!hahas.the first week of my holiday is passing by so meaninglessly.im turning into a couch potato sooner or later.so please do not be surprised if u see a bigger evolution of me.hahas..oh wells.shall end today.friday goign toget my fbts! yea for me!=)

*under the old maple tree
we will meet again after 3 years

2005-11-01T06:57:00.000-08:00

New layout! hahas.i love this layout cos its pink and its lyk a shopaholic kinda of thing.hahas.so my theme for this layout is shopping! hahas.went to ernestine hse yest for her party.it was fun and had band previously.I cried the moment i went for band.the band yest was not for seniors.i jus went there for fun. I was crying cos my appeal failed.n yest crying was not very glamorous.cos i was actually wailing lyk a 3 year old kid who lost her mummy.I was darn sad so i decieded to cry it all out.now im much better.hahas.oh man cant' wait for class chalet.im so excited.hahas.

*dont' miss the water
till the well runs dry

2005-10-30T06:12:00.000-08:00

i am ina dilemma now.i dun noe if i had made the right choice.i cant' think clearly and im in a state of confusion.i jus dun wan to care abt anytink and jus be alone.i jus wan to settle down and do well for next year.ppl are saying that i may have made the wrong choice bt i cud not care less.i jus to hack it all and jus go away.i feel childish and immature.=(

*colour me perfect
cos i am colourless

2005-10-29T09:21:00.000-07:00

OK PPL! I, AMANDA KHOO GEK LING, HAD MADE A HUGE DECISION TODAY.I HAVE DECIDED TO APPEAL TO GO FOR 3.8.wadever the outcome may be,i have already prepared for it.if i my appeal is sucessful, i will study EXTRA,EXTRA hard to get in to a good JC.If my appeal fail, i will study hard and get in to a good poly.Im seriously praying to god,hoping that my appeal will be sucessful.im caring abt anything.Its for my future.so im fighting with all my might.hahas.things are flying by fast.i cant' believe that im gg to be sec 3 so soon.im so gonna miss SSC and 2/5.Needless to say, im going to treasure all the time i spent with 2/5 at the class chalet.LOVE YA ALL!=)i am so gonna to cry if they do reflection.=(

*fighting the battle with all my might
its only the beginning of a new chapter

2005-10-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

its that time of the year.splitting time.or rather seperating time.well,today is the last day of sch.its also marks the end of the legendary sec 2/5 05.ok abit dramatic here.hahas.bt seriously, im reluctant to leave my class and all the enjoyable time we spent and shared together.times are flying by quickly and seniors are graduating while juniors are growing to be seniors.it seems as though yesterday was the start of everytink.the start of sec 2/5 05 and my second year of band.I could still remember the time when i first know i was gg to 2/5 and i was grumbling and saying that i hated 2/5 cos many of the 1/5 ppl are in there.bt now looking bck, i did many things which i neva expect myslef to do it.i hanged out with ppl i thot i would neva hang out with.i got to experience leadership and many other thinks i thot i would neva do it.Band had taught me many things and 2.5 had certainly been a great and marvallous class.the ppl in these two places had taught me many tinks and i really thanked them for it.2005 had been a rollercoaster year.Many unexpected things lyk sir leaving the band and many other things happen.During these 2 years, band had been great and my class had bond to grow closer.be it wheather its an enemy or best buddies, everyone had one tink in common.That is, we all love the times we spent together.I think i will missed sum things and ppl greatly.now, im looking forward for next year.I will missed sum seniors that i noe too.ppl lyk nicole,nat and many others.all the best for next year and good lucks for yr O levels.Love ya" all=)

*treasuring the time we shared together
we keep them close to our hearts and walk on for a better future

2005-10-27T08:08:00.000-07:00

tmr s the last day of sch.gonna miss all of my fellow classmates and of cos my class.it jus seems as if yest was the first day of sch.this year had been a rollercoaster year for me as i have mixed with ppl i have never ever dreamed of being together.all in all,it had been a fun and exciting year for me and i want to conculde it beautifully and elegantly.shall talk more tmr.kinda of nervous.nites ppl!=)

*crystalline teardrops
fallin onto the ground

2005-10-25T07:00:00.000-07:00

had band rm cleaning today for CIP.clash with the rehearsal for acheiver s' day.sain lo.rehearsal for 4 days.i will jus die.plus creative com and all.look after 1/6 today.its damn horrible.sum ass showed attitude to me.n they PURPOSELY created trouble for me.eg.when ask them to go up,they purposely stayed down for so long.then sum asshole went to rolled her eyes at me.roll so much later kena stucked .that time i will laugh till i drop.ok im lyk being mean here. bt heck?lyk who will be nice to her except her frens?which are lyk all her type?bitchy and slutty that kind.haiz.shant' talk abt it.rained heavily.band rm cleaning was ok today.had no idea those scores were so dusty.after packing them,my fingers were black at their tips.hahas.then we went to wash the metal shelfs.so now,trumpet section is the most organised section.hahas.bt i bet it wont stay that way for long.given for past experience.hahas.went hm feeling abit dusty after all the cleaning.oh well, abit tired after all the running and scolding and dusting.so off i go!*poof*

*the skys are cleared and
rainbows are shining as a symbol of hope

2005-10-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

i love 183 and full house! thes two things rocks my world.oh and the show wang zi bian qing wa.now must rush home every thur and fri for band to catch my show.im so irritated cos sm idiot went to tag my blog and criticised my previous post.claiming that im boasting abt my differrent posts at different places.lyk wth man!anyway,she has a poor spelling so i shant' bother with her as i do not wish to downgrade myself.bt whoever she is, all i can say is that i jus wan to know who u are and what is yr motive for doing this that s' all.newae, tmr i have in-line skating!! hahas! im kinda of afraid of fallin on my ass.i tink i shall bring a pillow tmr for safety protection for my ass.its precious u noe.hahas.if i fall on my ass tmr, i tink i can forget abt gg for band since band requires me to sit for 3 long hours.hahas.so ppl, pls pray that i do not fall on my ass tmr.even though its kinda of a soft landing.hahas.oh well, i shall stop crapping cos my eyelids are feeling heavy.chows and nites ppl!=)

*the faded memories of you
will come back some day

2005-10-21T07:00:00.000-07:00

got bck the scripts today.did pretty badly even though i failed one only.and thats geo.i cant' believe i passed my chinese and science anyway.oh well,start of CCA.had the first band practise, adn i totally forget about everytink,including our seating arrangements.hahas.wat i dumb asl i am.speaking abt that,im feel so stupid at some times when i cant' handle my section.lyk today.i cant' amke decisions fast without audrey helping me.this shows that i cant lead my section if audrey is not around.i feel useless and helpless.it most probably bcos audrey use to do all the tinks when she is around and i jus sit there and slack.i shall stop this slacking tink and let ppl noe that im real for once and all.sumtimes i feel bullied as an asl. pl shud be listening to me when i give out instruction yet they take me as though im sum kind of idiot talking crap.i feel stupid in this way.man, sumtimes i wonder why am i a student leader,an asl and a PC environment monitress when i have no leadership skills in me.i tink my chances of getting invested are low.oh well, sumtimes life jus have to be so demoralising.i may have a happy-go-lucky front bt deep down im actually feeling stupid and lost.its all abt destiny and fate playing a game wiht me.

*message in the bottle
tells a tale of happiness

2005-10-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

AHHH! IM AM MADLY IN LOVE WITH THESE 2 SHOWS! FULL HOUSE AND WANG ZI BIAN QING WA!! ITS DAMN NICE!! MUST GO BORROW VCD TO WATCH LE! hahas.the song is nice too.my layout of skin has moulded if u ppl have notice.hahas.hus wanted sumtink simple u see.the revious was too complicated as wat others say.hahas.oh well.notink much to blog.bt jus enjoy the song.=)

*destiny shows the way
of hope and everytink

183 CLUB ROCKS!!=)

2005-10-17T05:43:00.000-07:00

hey darlings!! wats up man! long time no blog.been studying hard so that s' why! i know im so guai la.cant' help if im an angel.hahas.newae, lets get down to business.firstly, many misunderstadings happen and tinks didnt really worked out.shall talk abt differrent tinks at a time

EXAMS!
BLEAH! NOTINK TO TALK ABT.IT SUCKS.

MISUNDERSTANDINGS.
its already history,in fact it had been archived.shall jus elaborate abit.basically,i tink i ahve a big problem with everyone, its lyk wadever i do i will find fault wiht myself.man im gg mad lo.mus be i bleed too much la.got menses for 28 days.(its an inside joke)

OUTINGS:
im lyk under sumkind of curfew man.im kinda of restricted for lyk gg out.im damn busy in nov.
IMPORTANT DATES:
1 NOV-ERNESTINE BIRTHDAY S' PARTY
7-9NOV-CLASS CHALET(3 DAYS,2 NITES)
how busy i am man.hahas.

CCA!
WTH MAN!!cca start so fast.its lyk so sudden.i have no mental preparations cos i have agulity consience lyk not practising my instruemnt and bringing it home to bai sweee.one more tink,im a weak hearted person.

well,im done.its not lyk as if ppl will come by my stupid blog to see my posts and know abt my dumb life.neverthless,i shall still blog for my own sake! ppl who like it or not.see,wat did i say abt ahving attitude?

*i believe that there will alwasy be
a sliver lining in every grey cloud.

2005-10-05T07:18:00.000-07:00

WA!!!! I LOST MY WALLET ON THEWAY TO SCHOOL THIS MORNING!!!WTH!!! felt quite depressed the whole day.then got no money and so i decided to not eat and go on a hunger strike the whole day!hahas.things did not end here.sum bloody idiot went to steal my PLASTIC water bottle.its lyk noraml kind of plastic water bottle ??its abit dots to steal it though.hahas.ahh!then now mus go make new ez-link card.with a new picture.i make sure i will smile properly and look chio enuff on the card.hahas.sounds pretty thick-skinnned.oh well.had to mug hard for history exam now.eng and chi was over bt sum how i tink i screwed up the whole pp.well,its over and it cant ' be redone.so no point tinking abt it ,i guess?? hahas.shall end here then.NITES PPL!=)

* because of you
i never stray too far from the sidewalks.

2005-10-03T05:55:00.000-07:00

1st day of EOY!not bad actually.bt i kinda of this feeling that i went out of point.hahas.going to change my taggie colour.think it s abit too disgusting.hahas.well im off now.to slog and change the colour.WHOOSH!=)
GOOD LUCKIES PPL!=)STRIVE FOR E BEST!

*im awake
but my world is half asleep.

2005-10-02T06:08:00.000-07:00

attended my great grandma furneral today.cried abit.now eyes all puffy.the process was fast.n this is my first time attending a furneral. pity we didnt get to see the flames and all.it was an eye opener for though.mandai creamatorium hall was cold.exams are lyk tmr.n i haven make the necessary preparations yet. need to plan out everytink already.wanna pass and go into a sci class lyk 3.8.cos it was predicted that i was streamed in there based on my mids. the counting down is jus adding more pressure.n im tinking of poning school on fri.since the timetable is so slack.been having fun the past few days with my fellow SSC members.went to the field and screamed our lungs out.later then lie down and look up into the sky and watch the fluffy clouds drift by.the feeling we get was damn relaxing,lyk all the troubles had been burst lyk a bubble.having meetin again on wed i guess.kks~ shall end here.rather tired after all.

*treasure what we posse
cos life is short

2005-10-01T08:05:00.001-07:00

changed layout AGAIN! hahas! this layout is damn cool anyway. ppl will jus go how to navigate ar?hahas. iTS OFFICIALLY PROVEN.IM FICKLE MINDED! hahas.newae,exams are coming and im still slacking lyk hell.been very fished up thses few days.dunno why.hahas.stress i guess. newae,WATS UP WITH COCKROACHES AND ME?A LIVE ONE WAS JUS CRAWLING IN MY BKS YEST. N NOW IM HALLUCINATING ABT THEM.WTH MAN! probably im too stressed or sumtink.oh wellsss. shall end here.nites.

*destiny is sumtink
we gamble

2005-09-30T06:18:00.000-07:00

its goona be a EXTREMELY long post for today.Many tinks happen this wk.Firstly, its photo taking yesterday.I was damn fished up with that female loudspeaker photographer.She pratically just dun feel lyk taking phtos for us la.Wat the hell is all these photographer problems?All are so bloody rude.If its not a flat head guy,then it s a woman with a loudspeaker. And all have attitude problems.Lyk HELLO!ITS US WHO IS PAYING THEM TO TAKE THE PHOTOS ,AND MAKE THEM EARN MONEY!ok,that was fine.and today sumtink terrible happen.shall not talk abt it as it is personal. Now its time to introduce the SSC and the 2/5 family tree! hahas. eunice is my daddy and mel tsang is my bro.n i ahve so many cousins.hahas.the SSC. Greatest society ever.WE jus totally rock.hahas.members are euncie,me,vanessa,ameera,flora,ashley.Meeting place is our 'FOCUS' table.hahas.newae, this part here is to tell smone.Im sorrie for all the misunderstanding cause .really really sorrie.i feel bad=(.n i hope you dun tink its the wrong way as everytink is all untrue.so yea sorrie!=)its all jus a spectaculation of others.cos that is wat i tink.sorrie onceagain.ok i noe im being stupid here by repeating.

2005-09-27T05:50:00.000-07:00

haven been bloggin for a long time.notink much happen recently,just that EOY are coming.n im still slakcing.hahas.well,its streaming this year so mus work extra extra hard. yea! I CAN DO IT! hahas sounds so retard. bt still mus work hard.NO MORE CARTOONS FOR ME! BOO HOO=(.jus found out that photo taking is on thur.at 2.00 p.m. before photo taking mus go toilet to tidy up and make a more smarter appearence.hahas.kks the next time i blog will be abt PHOTO-TAKING.nites.=)

*i never made the same mistake
as you did

2005-09-24T08:04:00.000-07:00

i jus love doing this. ok.September is coming to an end.n the yeasr are passing by fast.Many changes have ocurred within this short period of time.N I guess the biggest change that struck me and is still fresh in my mind will most probably be sir s' departure.That faithful day.28 may 05. To tell the truth,i have never thot that such tink wud happen. I was pretty much lyk the character,haw, frm who moved my cheese. I didnt tink that such tink wud occur until when it happen,im slowly adapting to the changes and finding out every little bit of what s' changing.I always thot that good tink lasts forever.or rather,tinks will always stay as they are. It has never dawned on me that sir wud ever leave. Bt then again, the unexpected happen.life is ever so unpredictable and unfair. Even though he had left us for a few months, none of us have ever bumped into him on the streets of Singapore.Singspore is lyk so small,yet none of us had been denied the chance of bumping or meeting him again.28 may.The first and last outdoor performance he had with us sec 2s.Now,looking back, I learned that one mus be vigilant and constant abt looking for changes. I was naive and the journey infront of me was a long way.Even though i have been adapting to changes,i always somehow wished that my cheese had never been touched or moved.I feel that many people around me had matured and adapting changes
too.Sometimes,some tinks in life are beyond our control.We do not posse the willpower to either make it disappear or make stay.It may be someone dear to you,or it may be sumtink that u treasured most. In fact,it may be anytink as long as it is dear to you.I just hope that he will be safe and sound in whatever he do and may god bless him always.

*Life is unpredictable,
and sometinks are beyond our control.

2005-09-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

I CHANGED MY LAYOUT!! hahas.I LOVE THIS! its says I HATE SCHOOL.which is very true.nah, i actually took it cos of the cartoon.i jus love calvin and hobbes.hee.newae had a jinx day yesterday.let me say the signs.

1) I FOUND A DEAD UPTURNED COCKROACH IN MY CUP!!! STILL TRAUMATISED AFTER 1 DAY!!! AH!!!!

2) My hair felt FAT!!!

3) IM PMSING.

4) IM FALLING SICK.

THESE ARE SIGNS THAT SHOW THAT MY DAY HAD BEEN JINXED YESTERDAY.1st,I HAD A BAD HAIR DAY!! AND THIS CANT' HAPPEN TO ME COS MY HAIR IS LYK MY NO.1 BAO BEI!!!.2nd,im pmsing for dunno why cos i seldom pms.hahas.n lastly.THE DEAD COCKROACH.THAT BLOODY ASSHOLE JUST HAD TO CHOOSE MY CUP TO DIE IZIT? WTH LO! IT NOT LYK MY CUP IS GOLD PLATED OR WAT?STUPID LE.SORREI IM SCOLDING A DEAD COCKROACH NOW! abit mean.hahas.bt who cares?it died in my cup!!! which is even worse.im so gonna sterilize my cup upside down.may be i shall be nice and say alittle RIP prayuer for the roach.:) after all,IM ANGELIC BY NATURE!:)

2005-09-17T07:57:00.000-07:00

hey ppl! Im bck! i missed my bloggin.hahas.shall start talking.Firstly, IM DYING!My tongue is killing me.ITS SO PAINFUL!AH!! ok went a bit overboard.bt seriously,if i die tmr,i will jus bless my blog.for all you noe,this might be my last entry.anyway,had abnd yesterday.apparently, i was kinda of odd there.cos i was in pe tee.my bloody blouse was dirty.unfortunately,some asshole teacher caught me and forced me to wear my blouse DESPITE me showing her its DIRTY.and the concert at VCH was confirmed,Unfortunately,we ahd to share the limelight with angklung,percussion,JB(junior band),sacps brass band.Its damn irritating la.How cheapskate can our bloody principal and sch get? fish sac la. Why cant' they jus create a concert that is rightfully AND originally ours. Newae,im beginng to have doubts abt my leadership qualities. After all,i cant even keep my section quiet.im afraid that if im too fierce,i might be overboard.bt if im too nice,ppl will not listen.and iof i dun make an effort,audrey will scold me.so its lyk wth man! sumtimes i wonder if i ahve wat it takes to be.well,shall not bother so much.after all,exams are round the corner.n im lyk pledging not to use the com.BT LYK WAT AM I DOING NOW?hahas.it jus proves that i cant' control the burning desire to use the com.many tinks to do yet so little time.

*spin the bottle
and it points at yr destiny

2005-09-12T07:37:00.000-07:00

today was pretty ok.i guess.well received all my mocks.and guess wat?I passed science and maths! bt i failed my eng by 1 mark for the compre.Oh well,maths pp2.GOT SO MANY MARKING ERROR! LYK WTH MAN! So i frm a 20,will be able to jump to 26.I hopefull prayed to god that i will get the 6 marks.It s 'CRUCIAL TO ME! hahas.newae,had sectionals today.IT WAS BORING! all day long notink bt jus that stupid idiotic FANTASY PIECE! IT LYK SO BORING!Except for the bar 56 part.So as usual it boring.Then later.wah piang! raining so heavily.Thunder booming very where and lighting flashing lyk dunno wat.So we decided to take the risk. And me,eunice plus audrey,huangchi,maxine and the rest went under the rain.We were lyk a couple of drenched ducklings.Then went to have sumtink hot to heat us up.It was fun bt damn damn drippling WET!Sianz,next fri still got cca.bt look on the bright side,ITS THE LAST WEEK OF CCA.YAYNESS!hahas ok nvm.:)

*that white flame
sets up a burning desire within me.

2005-09-10T09:55:00.000-07:00

hey!im bck people!Bck frm a hearty meal of chocolate snowskin mooncake and satay bee hoon.wow,man am i full.hahas.kks newae thats' my oh-so-lovely PINK SPARKLING name.nice rt?hahas i love it! makes me feels glamorous:)today had been an eye opener for me! why?cos its the FIRST time that the paramedics came to my grandma s' hse.its was bcos my great-grandma had breathing difficulty and her fingers were turing black.I was paralysed by my fears!hahas.so i jus stood there doing notink bt watch.ok,the BIG countdown starts frm monday morning.Its the countdown of my STREAMING.Yet im still slacking.wow.newae,audrey had jus BURST my bubble of happiness yesterday by telling me that band practices are actually being cut down frm 3 to 2 when all this while,I being an idiot,thot that it was frm 3 cut down to 1! And i was still tinking it was so rare of our sch to be so nice.And I the big idiot, jus found out that i have not been doing my part as an asl well enuff.I dun even noe my stuff and my tone is lyk BLEAH!WOW,LOOK AT GREAT I AM. N i jus found out that im not strict enuff with my section and thats is why they are so slack.N i mus not talk during all kind of practices.its lyk wth man! So frm now on,im going to be strict and try not to laugh when scolding.N i mus stop slacking.which i tink that is the hardest to cure cos im lyk such a procastinater by nature?hahas.ok abit dots.n i jus found out that i have a meeting at 7 on mon moring.WOW,HOW NICE! to get my day going by having a meeting.SO EARLY! Sumtimes,i really wonder what am i doing in a council?or rather,why am i in this asl position?So i satre up to the sky,waiting for an answer to reveal itself.Unfortunately,notink appeared except clouds.White,fluffy clouds.Oh well,perharps these are all pre-destined.or lyk what I call,FATE. FATE IS A GAME WE PLAY AND IT PLAYS WITH US BACK.:) Chimalogy? I shud tink so.:P

*what is fate?
its a game we play and it plays with us bck.

2005-09-09T07:42:00.000-07:00

oh man! I seriously woke up the wrong side of bed today! Every tink jus went topsy-turvy! Firstly, i woke up late when im suppose to meet flora and the rest at 9.30. I woke up at 9.00! and plus,im suppose to give ashley a morning call lyk at 8.30?ok,so that was quite bad already.never mind.then came on going to flora s' hse.on my own!I tried to go to her hse one time and i got horribly lost! Its lyk i dun even noe that bloody place called pasir ris well! i lyk dun even go there! fish that place la!And then i was took to go for a nice merry go round. wow!In the end, I got so fed-up that i jus cried and walk around pasir ris aimlessly.Its was so horrible and there is lyk so many ppl staring at me. fish all those ppl la! bt later, when i was going home frm, suddenly,i jus lift up my head and guess wat i saw?PASIR RIS DRIVE 6! and that was where flora yong stays! i was lyk wth! so jus alighted and called flora. N the first tink i did when i saw flora was to hit her with the cereal box!sorrei flora.if u are reading this.cos im really damn tired jus for looking for yr damn hse! ok,so that was quite ok.then came band.THE WORST PART OF MY DAY! It jus have to ruin my whole and end it off with a terrible note.lyk wth man! had sectionals for the first hr and my tongue sorta get twisted after tonguing for so long.ok,that part was still manageable.Later had COMBINES! IT WAS THE WORST MAN! i noe my lipping and every part of my body is wrong when i play bt that does not mean that i have to bring hm my instrunment.Especially not this period of time! Its lyk when sch opens, i ONLY HAD 3 MORE WEEKS TO MY STREAMING.SO obviously,I WOULD RATHER CONCENTRATE ON MY ACADEMICS RATHER THAN MY DUMB INSTRUMENT AND MY OH-SO-LOUSY PLAYING SKILLS WITH EVERY PART OF MY BODY BEING WRONG AND NOT BEING WHAT IT IS SUPPOSE TO BE. SO, AS YOU PPL CAN TELL,IM NOT SO " PASSIONATE " FOR BAND.AFTER ALL, IM NOT GOING TO BE SOME WELL KNOWN PERFORMER OR TRUMPETER.N THAT BLODDY ASSHOLE INSTRUCTOR,he is jus getting on my nerves. He lyks practically copntradicting what he says.ONE MOEMENT HE SAY THAT ITS ALRIGHT TO CONCENTRATE ON YR STUDIES, THEN THE NEXT MOMOENT,HE SAYS THAT HE EXPECT US TO DEVOTE ALL OUR TIME TO IMPROVE OUR PLAYING!YLK WTH MAN! FISH HIM UPSIDE DOWN LA! HE A CHAMELEON,THE UGLIEST CREATURE OR SHIT ON THIS WHOLE UNIVERSE! CONTRADICT AND UNREASONABLE LYK SHIT MAN! HOW CAN ANYONE WANT TO MARRY SUCH A FREAKO MANIAC? THAT PERSON MUS HAVE HOLES IN HER BRAINS OR SHE NEED TO GET HER BRAINS EXAMINED! ARGH!! SO INFURIATING WHEN SUCH AN ASSHOLE HAS INCURRED MY WRATH! after band and all,went hm with nicole and chandni.Me and nicole were lyk complaing all the way hm! Looks lyk im not the only one with abad day today! hahas! Bt seriously, I had ended my holidays in a VERY VERY SOUR NOTE.BLEAH!
I shall end here cos my mouth is dry frm all the scolding.:(

*life is the road that i wanna keep going
love is the river that i wanna keep flowing

2005-09-06T07:21:00.000-07:00

went to sch today! hahas.actually met ashley at bedok inter and we were lyk so late! then we saw chandni and eunice and guess wat,they reach earlier than us! me and ashley were shocked! hahas and both of us were so casual that we wore pe attire and filp-flops to sch! its lyk we were going to sum kind of market! hahas! so fun! bt my happiness were short-lived.cos i was cracking my brains if i shud go for sectionals on thur or wat.cos if i dun go, audrey will smacked me upside and it will be very irrespondsible of me as im ASL.so that when i decided to toss a coin to seek heavens' opinion.and guess wat! the result was positive! so even heaven tinks i shud go.so thats' when i decided to resign myself to fate. and jus go the bloody sectionals. after all,i did a survey and many people says that i will be irrespondsible if i dun go.well,so thats my mini story about fate! how cool is that? hahas:P bt seriosuly, i kinda of tink that im irrespondsible if i do not go. well so yea.after all,i have a consience living inside me.hee:)

*a litte angel
stands by me

2005-09-04T07:34:00.000-07:00

I WENT CHURCH YEST!! HAHAS! ITS SO FUN!ok shall stop being so hyper.bt it was really fun.i wanna go again next week.people there are so friendly.hahas ! i cant' decide for wat skin to choose for my blog.i kinda of tired of the skin im having now.i wan sumtink that is pink,black and with music of cos.hahas! well shall continue searching then.well on secong thots,i jus wan sumtink that has musical notes in it.so i tink it shall be sumtink simple this time.

*forgiveness is a give frm god
so treasure it

2005-09-02T06:56:00.000-07:00

tired.damn tired.AND SICK OF ALL THAT STUFF! its jus so sickening being misunderstood.people think too much these days.they are all jus paraniod.and I cant' stand it.wth is wrong with them and their mindset?will they jus stop stero-typing people? its irriataing and sickening! newae,today was bad.REAL bad.It was boring la.shud not have come to sch today.:( oh well,now im planning of wat to do during the holi.there is no cca until lyk fri?hahas!i tink i will most prob be looking forward for cca. i tink i shall be a guai kid and stay at hm to study.hahas,i tink i will most prob end up watching tv. O and i got scolded by ms chia TWICE.for jnot handing up the jewellry and skecth bk.lyk wat s' her prob? argh now i need to go look for bondite to make my stupid ring! n im having a bad feeling when sch reopens.we will be getting our mock.shucks,confirmfail for eng and sci and MATHS PP 2!I lyk practically anyhow scribble for all these papers.well,I scribbled for pp 1 too.hee:) surprisingly,i managed to pass with a nice double digit.33/50. IM INCREDIBLE + UNBELIEVABLE.hahas.ok abit thick-skinned.bt its true.especially for his! I dun study for the paper and slept thru out the whole test and yet i got 10/15.is it jus plain coincidence or wat?or may be im physic? well i dunno .hahas. if im physic,then im REALLY love myself for having such a wonderful power :) ok shall stop being thick-skinned.hee:)

*i floated like a ragged leaf
finding a place to seek refuge

sianzzz

2005-09-01T06:57:00.000-07:00

today was much pretty okay, i guess?hahas well went to airport with eunice,adlin and da jie. Well, i didnt really studied bt at least i manage to do my report. so sian la. tmr got sch! why cant' they jus cancel the whole tink and let us rest for lyk 2 days?hello,its lyk only 2 days? how selfish can our school be? oh well, shant' be botherd.well,at least there is no band tmr.actually,i kinda of missed band.i DUNNO WHY.May be its bcos my life revolves around band too much! Oh no! hahas! watching the superstar now and OH MAN! KELLY CANT' SING! SO LYK WAT IS SHE DOING IN THE COMPETITION/hahas ok im being mean bt i tink i will still support no one. hahas! argh im tired now so i shall go slp now.nites:)

*life without love
is like a tree without fruits

2005-08-31T05:50:00.000-07:00

hey!haven been updating for a long time! com not working recently.kks anyway! good news: I PASSED PP 1 FOR MATHS! AH! I GOT 33 OUT OF 50! I was in a state of shockness when i recieved the paper!hahas !today is teachers"day celebration! blah! I was so RETARDED LOOKING! ok,i was supposed to be peter pan cos i think that was lyk the easiet character?hahas ok never i shall jus be embaressed jus for once in a life time.hee:)been feeling high these few days!dunno why.oh well,cant' be bothered.I CHANGED MY SKIN! I LOVE IT SO MUCH NOW HAHAS! i tink it was better than the previous one.kks here is the shout out part.: HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DEE! hahas i noe the pressie me and eunice gave u is a bit too soft so, sorrie=) and smilez:)

*like a candle in the wind
you light up my life

2005-08-27T07:26:00.000-07:00

hey! shall blog in turquoise cos turquoise is now OFFICIALLY my FAV colour!hahas! jus happen to fell in love with it.ok shall talk abt yest! school was pretty boring bt band was much more exciting.hahas! audrey didnt' come yest for cca and she left me all alone to handle the whole trumpet section.Sadly,Qianwen and Elena went to toilet without asking my permission.I mean at least tell me where you are going rt? I mean its like they dun respect me as their asl.so wth! newae sumtink funny happen yest when gg hm that time.Me,nicole,triana,denise and bertha were trapped in the primary school.It was lyk this, we actually wanted to take the lift down bt the lift locked le.So we decided to walk down by the primary school way.When we reached the 2nd level, we found out that all the shutters were locked! We looked for a way out bt there is practically no way out!So we panicked and started running back to the secondary school there.It was damn scary.I noe its a bit spastic bt hey its scary ok? O and ppl, I HAVE FOUND A NEW LOVE! IT THE CADBURY HOT CHOCOLATE DRINK!ITS DAMN SUPER NICE! hahas! ok i noe im being spastic here.BT its really nice.N im like kinda of addicted to it cos i MUST MUST have a cuppa before i sleep and and every morning to get my day started.hahas=)kks~shall and here for now.

*if only we could turn back time
mistakes will all be erased

revived

2005-08-24T05:01:00.000-07:00

heyhey! having been updating for quite awhile cos recently had been caught up wiht many stuffs like mocks and all.Forst ly let me talk abt mocks.ITS IS DAMN DAMN SUPER DAMN TERRIBLE+HORRIBLE+VEGETABLE! I LIKE DUNNO ANYTINK ABT THE MATHS PAPER 1! Ms Masura is a big idiot man! set until so difficult! i totally dun understand anytink in the god damn pp! ah! forget it man! im going and prepared to fail this time!=( Science was today.Came out so many of the sexual reproduction and im lyk totally clueless abt it.Ask some question lyk wat will happen if the woman had one of her ovaries removed.Like do u tink i noe?It was NOT even in chapt 6! ITS 7!! its not even supposed to be tested in the first place! Unfairness!=( o well i still have one more to go and its FINALLY OFFICIALLY OVER! newae had the dialogue session today. Its a bit dots cos we wer there for like only 15 mins then we went off for mocks.so lame! As usual its about handphones. so we cud all much pretty guess abt it.oh well shall end here for now~

*guess im jus not what i used to be
my life is going down the drain

peppermint sticks rocks*=)

sian

2005-08-20T05:58:00.000-07:00

it was so boring .every sat. the same old routine.haiz.my life is PATHETIC! for normal school days,after school band if not tutorials or if not for some council stuff.my simply jus revolves around band and more band.how boring can it get? its lyk i have 3 practices for band in a week.everytime after school ends then its band already.come to tink of it now.im feeling abit sian by it already.I lost the enthu in going for cca le.how?=( hahas! any way IM SOOOO HAPPY.i found the design.It jus popped out and voila, i have it .hahas okay that is lame.notink much to write today=)

im a tall strong tree
that wont be shaken or defeated

*she stands rooted and firmly on the ground*

2005-08-19T07:15:00.000-07:00

argh!today suck.especially band.mr de s' version of my clappin=MORSE CODE!(dunno how to spell bt cant' be bothered.)Its lyk so WTH la.Im too sleepy or tired and cant concentrate.Im not angry bcos he called me that bt now its lyk every one started calling me that when they see me la.so annoying! nevertheless,I shall be a strong tree that wud not fall jus bcos of a comment.lyk they say,a good entrepreneur is willing to accept and learn from his/hers mistakes.hee=)newae went hm with nicole today after band and we were lyk makin fun od his clothes saying they were custom-made for him cos he is too fat to fit in an clothes size even the XXXXL size.hahas!ok, i noe we are mean bt lyk who cares?its the fact hahas=)and the fact or the truth always hurt!hee=)then met rebecca and the rest.MATHS MOCKS are coming and notink can be absorbed into my brain.sometimes i REALLY REALLY wonder if im pushing myself too hard to get into 3.6 for the final year.the ans: I HAVE NO IDEA.= i seriously hoped that mocks will be over as soon as possible and i noe that god will guide me thru this period of time and devote all my fullest concentration to it. cos the paper is set by ms masura.the mid-year pp was set by her too and the results came bck were super negative.I may have been lucky to passed the first test bt i dunno if i cud still managed to passed the second one.oh wells,i shall jsu have to devote my time now for the paper and SHANT' be botherd abt anytink else.mr de can scold me for all i care bt i will not be shaken or bothered.my most important target for now is jus MOCKS AND ONLY MOCKS.

who is that girl i see,staring stright back at me
when will my reflection show who i am?

her reflection is still unknown

i feel stupid

2005-08-18T20:55:00.000-07:00

this is hell,TERRIBLE! I ACTUALLY LOST SUMTINK IMPORTANT! AH! the tink is the design for the CSB 1st board.and now i totally have no recollections of where i last seen it or put it.im seriosuly in deep trouble and i dunno how to confess it to my head.i know its an act of irrespondsible behaviour and im terribly sorrie=(.on top of that,today MOCKS sucks! some stupid passsage abt ants came out and i totally dun understand it! i was lyk wth!worse still,I SCREWED IT UP! I did not leave 3 lines after every ques! im quite worried abt it and i seriously dun wan to fail this paper even though it is mocks.newae,tmr is a slack day bt its my dooms day cos i have to tell jane that i cant' find the design.oh well, heres' one of my favourite song lyrics and u mus mus wactch the MV its DAMN nice and sweet!
ENJOY!=)

cos you had a bad day
you taking one down
you sing a sad song jus to turn it around
you say you dont' know
you tell me dont' lie
you work out a smile and you go for a ride
you had a bad day
the camera dont' lie
you coming back down and you really dont' mind
you had a bad day
you had a bad day

im indeed having a bad day=(

2005-08-16T05:14:00.000-07:00

ah! i tink i have been inspired to take up the course of entreprenuership.its damn cool.hahas.it started when i attended this workshop abt youth entreprenuership.and it was damn fun and we learn many tinks lyk how to run a good business and how good is yr selling skills and all.and we had this 60 seconds test tink and obviously i failed .hahas! it was damn fast.its lyk u read all the instructions 44 seconds has passed! n then there is this mind reading tink and the instructor actually cud read wat we wrote.i wrote denmark,kangaroo and orange.and the ans came out was if u cannot catch up buy an air ticket to denmark and ask the orange kangaroo for help! and my reaction was stunned !im was jus too shocked to say anytink.newae shall end here cos very tired after a days work.hee=)

2005-08-15T06:31:00.000-07:00

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY! HAHAS! damn happy and hyper thru the whole day today.first,i went to school and many greeted me with lots of handshakes and huggies.then during maths lesson,the class sang a birhtday song for me hahas! after that is band time.notink much happen except many people wished me and later me,nat and eunice went to eat bt fiona did not came to sch today so we went without her.to fiona:GET WELL SOON=)received quite a few pressies and let me name them and who they are frm.eunice,nat,fiona,and sherri gave me a box of jigsaw puzzles,weelyn gave me a wallet,joycelyn,audrey and clarissa gave me a $20 tm voucher and last bt not the least dee gave me a note.it was the smallest among all the pressie bt it was sincere hahas=)!and rebecca still owns me mine ahahs! im still waiting.shall end here bt today was a magnificent day cos it is my birthday

3 MORE DAYS TO MOCKS=(STRESSED)=

2005-08-14T05:16:00.000-07:00

ah! woke up with a terrible sore throat.lyk wth man=(notink much happen today except MY BIRTHDAY IS TMR!!!hahas ok its too kua zhang! nevertheless i have also decided to bury all the unhappy stuff and be myself once a gain.For the past few days,im seriously not in the right state of my mind. Bt now,im back with my old bubbly character.Now i feel like im a hundred times lighter than any tink else cos i feel like me again! hahas! infact i tink im gettin higher every min yea!=)
ITS GOOD TO BE ME AGAIN!=) seriously,i have never felt this happy in my life.its like every tink,all my troubles and worries have dispersed in to thin air and the best part is that they will NEVER EVER appear again! how wonderful is that? VERY! hahas ok im REALLY HIGH.too much sugar=)

IT FEEL WONDERFUL TO BE ME AGAIN!=)
NOTTINK CAN EVER STOP ME NOW!=)))

2005-08-13T05:06:00.000-07:00

i changed my skin and my links are okay hahas! so happy hee=) newae this entry is to apologise for sum tinks and i seriously dunno what gotten into me these few days. i jus feel strange and weird.most prob is either mocks are near or the are physical problems with my body.well, i shall blog abt whats install for me this comin week.

MONDAY:

MY BIRTHDAY!HAHAS!have band and after band gg out with eunice,nat and fiona

TUESDAY:

have this workshop thingy to atted for council.

WEDNESDAY:

tutorials until 3.30

THURSDAY:

ENG MOCK EXAMS!!

FRIDAY:

BAND,after band have to go church.

thats what s packed for me this coming week.its totally packed and im busy up to my neck hee=) well shall end here.

im feeling guilty and sorrie=(

2005-08-12T05:18:00.000-07:00

today was the best hahas! first of all i would like to have a big THANK YOU to dee and vanessa for celebrating my birthday wif me today even though it was kinda of early hahas! vanessa and i waited for dee like 1 hr plus and later went to pizza hut to eat.after that, we went to coffe bean to get me a slice of cake as a birhtday cake.it was kinda of cheapo BT its the thot tt counts hahas. thanks you very much once again!huggies=) newae, i was so tired the whole day tt i cud jus fall asleep any moment of any lessons hahas may be its bcos i did not have enuff slp for this 1 week lols!IM SO HAPPY THAT MY BIRHTDAY IS COMING! AH! ok its abit diao i noe hahas! bt i shall be high on that day and try my best to make everyone happy hee=)rebecca is gettin my pressie tmr and may be gg out wif eunice,natalie and fiona after band on mon hee=) kks~shall end here for now.

I LOVE DEE AND VANESSA FOR CELEBRATING WIF ME TODAY HAHAS!=)MUCH HUGGIES AND SMILES =)

2005-08-11T05:23:00.000-07:00

notink much happen today,jus had band n later went hm quite early for a thurs hahas cos usually i reach hm lyk at 8 plus hee=) man tests are coming n i haven even start revising yet! worse of all, is im still slacking hahas. din really have the motivation cos i jus want to celebrate my birthday first hee.im still in the lala mood.band time. was the worse cos we hav this pariring up tink and i paired up with a junior and i totally dunno wat to do.hahas my tongue just got lost hee=)
oh well shall end here.

im having a bad day=(

im gettin older=(

2005-08-10T05:39:00.000-07:00

sorrie if the previous entry is abit harsh bt to those 3 assholes pls stop all this before things turn ugly.newae had a really great day today! firstly went to meet up wif audrey and joycelyn at tm,then went to parkwayto meet ernestine and the rest.later went to ernestine hse to make the chocolate dipped food. hahas it was damn funa nd tiring.NOTICE: PLEASE COME AND SUPPORT US TMR!=) after that went home with cindy and we crapped alot hahas! im feeling rather excited as my birhtday is coming . its on this coming mon! yeah! hahas bt i will like those 3 assholes not to create any trouble on that day or else u will suffer a life like hell!

COUNTDOWN:

4 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!=) ITS ON THE 15th OF AUGUSt=)

2005-08-08T08:08:00.000-07:00

reach school today like at 5.50am and it was dark n scary. I was not even half awake yet! lols then we performed for the guides and st.johns to march pass n later had the sports carnival thingy and my lovely class won alot of medals! whoo! go 2.5! lols ! newae its 6 more days to my birthday counting from today! hahas .. the previous one was supposed to be 8 days not 6 so yea.newae this for 3 oh so irritating ppl that caused many ppl s' lives to bein hell.I dun give a damn if u are reading this.Firstly,U, stop being two faced and trying to be nice and all.. saved yr pretence cos i noe evrytink and stop back stabbing my frens and breaking frenships, even though we are in the same class, same cca and all.Secondly,U are not in my cca bt in the same class .U,stop thinking tt i like ppl frm dunno wat soevr where places. WE ARE JUS CLOSE ! GET IT! CLOSE! sometimes i wonder if by any chance if U are jealous that yr seniors or who ever are not so close to you tt why u have to resort to such despicable method of spreading rumors and all,bitch! I seriously cant stand it anymore. Jus get OUT from my life and from my sight! As for the third person, i dun really care much abt you cos u are nt even in my class bt same cca bt let me tell u this, pls be mindful of yr words incase u get choked on them one day. All in all jus stop all these rumors spreading thinks! dun u ppl think it so lame or izit jus tt u ppl hav notink better to do? If it is so, then get a life ! incase for your info, the present lifes u ppl are living now are jus boring kiddish lives! so grow up for heaven sake! I dun care who reads this bt im jus pissed by all this tinks tt has been happening repeatingly to me the past few months.Call me a bitch, asshole or wat so ever i dun care! All i noe is tt there is a limit to ones' patinence tt all.O n to the second person, STOP SPREADING PPL SECRETS!!! dun u noe its very rude. Im pissed and stressed,pardon me for the vulgarities used in this entry.=(

NOTICE OF THE WEEK:

6 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!=)

2005-08-07T07:07:00.000-07:00

ah! i desperately needed help! i tink im too stressed. i jus dunno why. in the past i have never been like this. could it be becos this is year is streaming tt why? i seriously dunno! =( n my life is like taking a turning point with every tink going the wrong way. n i seriously hate it.=( newae i had to reach school tmr at 5.45 lyk wth! i probably fall asleep in the cab or sumtink or is either im half awake when i reach to school.Jus changed my fone cover today.N its barbie pink jus like this colour! hee i love it =)newae i dun care who is reading this all i care now is tt i have changed.and its not for the better its for the worse. I have become more sensitve,paraniod and all. Im jus too stressed out tt all. I apologise to all those if i have scolded them for notink. Im jus tired of every tink in life and jus want to get away with it.I jus wished its all a bad dream and when i am awake , everytink will disapper n return to normal. Its all a bad dream that s' all.

HAPPI BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE!=)

NOTIC OF THE WEEK:

6 MORE DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!=)

2005-08-05T05:19:00.000-07:00

woke up tis morning wif a sore throat and now got a damn flu! ah! n now collating 120 surveys! some are like so lame and crappy especially sec 1s! then there was tis sec 2 anonymous oso dunno how to spell! its lyk terrible la and my eyes are gg blind from all the surveys some write so small and some write so big lyk as if we are blind! n some suggestions are really out of the box! well kks shall go collate and make myself laugh=)! im so evil

2005-08-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

today was a really a tiring day! had maths test and all n then later got band . we played today for the guides and st.johns ppl to march . it was so tiring ! bt nevertheless we hanged and on and played lols! n yesterday was not reall y a good day cos its was annoucing which class we are being streamed according to our med years results .. n i got into 3.8! alil shocking for me as i thot tt i was gg to 3.5! yea so i mus work hard to get inot a better class lols.. went out yest to get council stuff n i sorta of skipped tutorials n dear audrey liaw helped me to cover up lols! i love her =) well not much happen today so entry is gg to be short =)!

2005-08-02T05:28:00.000-07:00

its sucks totally.. i seriously hate today! i actually cried in school cos pris was laughing at my hair.i mean im so paraniod abt tis whole issue n she has to laugh. i mean its really hurting when so many ppl are lyk making fun of yr hair and all. it may not be a sensitive issue to others bt its a very sensitive issue to me as i haven been having short hair for a long time. I was damn hurt bt touched at the same time for those who were there. V. fong actually rush to find me and she got blamed innocently hee=) then there was my ever so darling sister natalie who console me very well n hugged love you sissy=) then there was gee eunice and fiona , thoese dunno how to console wan lols bt thanks anyways=) n of cos dee,even though she neva done much hee=) O and there was adlin who told me i looked cute no matter what! thanks adlin! and i truly love those that come and console me. THANKS!=)

TO ALL THOSE THAT CARED FOR ME:

THANKS FOR ALL THE CONSOLING AND HUGGINS=) LOVE YOU PPL LOADS!=)

2005-08-01T05:26:00.000-07:00

today was so irritating!! ppl keep saying tt i look horrible and i became so paranoid tt i looked in to the mirror every single sec ! band was as usual sian cos today dee never come =( i miss her so much hahas!sm stupid idiot went to piss all of us off today. she literally slammed the box into my face when i was jus trying to be nice ! lyk wth ! humph shant' talk abt it.. O n i found a new sister.. hee=) so happy oh well shall end here!

new look

2005-07-31T05:06:00.000-07:00

shall use pink today cos feeling abit pink hee=) lols newae i cut my banks today( banks are known as hair too) its lyk so short now ! TOTALLY cannot tied ! i wanted to try new hairstyle so i decided to take the plunge hahas=) lols okay notink much todae shall stop here=)

to my dearest senior:

relax and dun feel so stressed out ! u can do it!=)

just dots

2005-07-30T06:24:00.000-07:00

heyhey.. its jus new lols okay shall start talking.. im damn unlucky yesterday.. gee eunice hit my ankle wif her snare drum n it was so pain that i wanted to cry .. she still had to poke me wif it when im lyk pain enuff.. good tink natalie pulled me away fast or who noes what she might do next lols.. thanks natalie hee=) kks shall stop for now